Locked Up

I miss writing.

I want to write but I can't.

It's like something has psychologically locked that part of my mind away and no matter what techniques I try, I can't break it. I feel like I hit a literal wall.

And it was so much a part of my life for so long that now, this time without it, I don't feel whole. I have a yearning, a longing for a distant lover.

But this is a battle I will fight to the death. I will never stop trying to break the wall. To rescue and reunite with my love.

That would be a glorious day indeed.

WritersBlock

It really sucks having writers block. Its like my mind has an idea but gets stuck when I try to expand on it. For instance, with my book that I'm working on. I wrote the first "draft" which was basically just a summary of the events in the book. I want to create dialog and scenery but when I grab my netbook, I don't know where to start or what to say. I make a few editions here and there but overall its a very slow process trying to get out the book I want to write. Sometimes I have so many ideas that its just hard to focus on one.

I wanna get back into writing my poetry again but sometimes I feel that ship has sailed. I used to write poems on a regular basis, like a few every month. Now its like, if i can manage to get one out, its the only one in some years. In the past five years, I've written about 3 poems. People always wanna tell me that its just because I'm not inspired. That I should just let it flow and not force it. I'm not forcing anything. That's why I haven't wrote anything in a while. The flow I used to have just isn't there anymore. The words used to come to me whenever, wherever. Now, it get nothing. Literally my mind is blank.

I know the words will come when they're ready. In the meantime, I guess I'll do my nails.

Back on the good foot

Its been a while since I actually wrote a blog. I really dont know why I stopped but Im gonna get back on the good foot and start blogging again. The idea was given to me to document my "journey" as I read the Bible from cover to cover for the first time. But I dont want this to turn into a Bible blog so Im gonna post random stuff in between my thoughts about my reading. Hopefully I wont offend any of my invisible readers.

If you have any topics you want me to rant and rave about, post them

New Writing

I'm trying to get back into writing and I appreciate all the people who are trying to help the process. So in addition to some poems I'm working on, I'm also working on a short story based on a dream I had. I figure that the short story will help by getting my fingers and mind back in the routine of channeling thoughts onto the paper. Plus, I haven't written a story in a while, unless you count the description of the dreams Ive had.

This should be fun.

Kisses

When our lips touch, its magic
ever since that day when my mouth tasted your mouth,
I been a fanatic
I feel like an addict who can't get a fix
I'm just feening for a kiss
your kisses are more than just kisses
they're wishes for love and hugs
its like sex between our tongues
your kisses make me melt like ice in the sun
I get warm, then I get hot
then I want to have fun
when we kiss, we become one
your lips melt into mine
our tongues become entwined
I get a rush down my spine
that can only be described as divine
the only thoughts running thru my mind
are how I can make you mine
so I can feel your kisses all the time
after our lips seperate
I still hunger for a taste
I long to kiss your face
sometimes you make my heart race
and sometimes it skips a beat
my knees feel weak
and I get light on my feet
I want to savor your flavor
that tastes so sweet
so sweet, I get a cavity
sometimes I want you so bad
I can't breate
I lose my gravity
what's happening to me?
its all because of you
and the things you do
your kisses make me feel like I could fly if I wanted to
but what I really want is you