Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Strange Morning

I had a very strange experience this morning, followed by a weird dream.

I was lying in the bed, almost sleep but not quite. You know when youre half asleep but you can still hear the things around you, I was in that state. I could hear the sounds of the street and that incessant dog barking in the neighborhood. Then I began to sense very faint footsteps, leading from the kitchen to the hallway.

You know how sometimes you can sense the presence of a person near you without actually seeing them? Like when people try to scare you but you sensed them being around you so their trick didnt work? Well, I sensed this being along with the footsteps. The steps were very faint and the rhythm of it made me think of someone walking.

The entire house was quiet as I was the only one here. Most of the windows were open and even though I could hear the sounds from outside, I could still distinctly hear these faint steps. I started to get scared because I didnt hear a door open, no movement, no creaking sounds of old floorboards. The steps sounded the same on the wood floor as they did on the carpet.

My heart started racing as I heard the steps and sensed the being come into the room. It went around the bed to the far side where I was lying. The presence got really strong as it stood next to me. I was lying on my side with my back towards it and a sleep mask over my eyes. I felt like the being leaned over and breathed on my face because I remember my face getting really warm and it seemed like the face was right in front of me.

My heart was beating so fast, I jolted up and ripped the mask off my eyes. There was nothing there. The feeling of the presence was still there but it soon faded. I sat and listened to the sounds around me coming thru the window. Nothing I heard sounded like those steps. I was so freaked out, I could go back to sleep. I kept replaying the scene in my mind, wondering what it could have been.


When I finally went to sleep I had a dream where I was in the same room and I heard noises coming from the bathroom. The door to the bedroom is directly across from the bathroom so when I got up and walked out of the room, I could see three young guys outside the bathroom window. They were trying to get into a secret room near the roof that I could see from a small hole in the bathroom. I opened the window and told them to leave. They climbed off the side of my house and climbed into the back of the house next door, which doesnt have anyone living in it now but apparently, someone lived in it in the dream. I went back into the bedroom and looked out the window and I could see an old man sitting in a rocker on the front porch.

Some other stuff happened that I cant remember now but there were three things that happened to my house in this dream. The kids trying to get in was one. The second thing I remember was that for some reason there were quite a few girls in my house. I walked past the bathroom door and got wet. I turned around and saw a few girl in the bathtub and a few more in the bathroom (the bathroom in the dream was way bigger than my actual bathroom). The shower head was on full blast yet it was facing out the door, soaking the carpet.

The third thing I remember is looking into the living room and seeing a young girl and boy arguing next to the front door. I asked why they were in my house and proceeded to escort them out the door. As we exited, I saw a guy I knew but hadnt seen in years. We struck up a conversation and he went to his car to get something to show me. I cant remember what it was but it was then that I noted several broken panes of glass on the door. Part of the door was like a stained glass window. There were several large sections shattered, cracked or completely gone.

I was outraged because I knew that boy did it. Several people in the neighborhood came to see the damage since I was on my front porch having a fit. One lady pointed out that the house diagonal to mine was where the boy lived and she went to get his mother. When the boy's mother walked up, she looked ashamed and said she would pay for the damage.

When my mother got home later, I went to show her the door and it looked like someone put all the pieces of broken glass back together into each space. All the holes were filled but the glass was not whole pieces. I tapped one of the sections and the glass flexed and bounced back like jello.

When I awoke from this dream, I looked around the room because I still remembered that presence I felt earlier. It hasnt left my mind all day.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Dr. Phil Test

This is a real test given by Human Relations Departments at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and in their prospective employees.

There are 10 Simple questions, so grab a pencil and paper. Record your letter answers to each question

1. When do you feel your best...
A) in the morning
B) during the afternoon and early evening
C) late at night

2. You usually walk...
A) fairly fast, with long steps
B) fairly fast, with little steps
C) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
D) less fast, head down
E) very slowly

3. When talking to people you...
A) stand with your arms folded
B) have your hands clasped
C) have one or both your hands on your hips
D) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
E) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with..
A) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
B) your legs crossed
C) your legs stretched out or straight
D) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with...
A) big appreciated laugh
B) a laugh, but not a loud one
C) a quiet chuckle
D) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...
A) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
B) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
C) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...
A) welcome the break
B) feel extremely irritated
C) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most....
A) Red or orange
B) black
C) yellow or light blue
D) green
E) dark blue or purple
F) white
G) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are.....
A) stretched out on your back
B) stretched out face down on your stomach
C) on your side, slightly curled
D) with your head on one arm
E) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...
A) falling
B) fighting or struggling
C) searching for something or somebody
D) flying or floating
E) you usually have dreamless sleep
F) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS: 1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10 (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up your points and see how you scored.

OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.
51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality, a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once, someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting, someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced enough not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding, someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expects the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you, realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions and who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well, know that you aren't.

Dr. Phil scored 55. He did this test on Oprah and she got a 38.
I scored a 38 as well. Post your scores below.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Thuggin 2(c) by Papi Heysus

One of my favorite beats from one of my favorite producers and good friend. Enjoy!

Thuggin 2(c) by Papi Heysus

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

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Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo” is a grammatically correct sentence used as an example of how homonyms and homophones can be used to create complicated constructs. It has been discussed in the literature since 1972 when the sentence was used by William J. Rapaport, currently an associate professor at the University at Buffalo.[1] It was posted to Linguist List by Rapaport in 1992.[2] It was also featured in Steven Pinker’s 1994 book The Language Instinct. Sentences of this type, although not in such a refined form, have been known for a long time. A classic example is the proverb “Don’t trouble trouble until trouble troubles you”.

The sentence is unpunctuated and uses three different readings of the word “buffalo”. In order of their first use, these are

  • c. The city of Buffalo, New York;
  • a. The animal buffalo, in the plural (equivalent to “buffaloes”), in order to avoid articles;
  • v. The verb “buffalo” meaning to bully, confuse, deceive, or intimidate.

Marking each “buffalo” with its use as shown above gives

Buffaloc buffaloa Buffaloc buffaloa buffalov buffalov Buffaloc buffaloa.

Thus, the sentence when parsed reads as a description of the pecking order in the social hierarchy of buffaloes living in Buffalo:

[Those] (Buffalo buffalo) [that] (Buffalo buffalo buffalo) buffalo (Buffalo buffalo).
[Those] buffalo(es) from Buffalo [that are intimidated by] buffalo(es) from Buffalo intimidate buffalo(es) from Buffalo.
Bison from upstate New York who are intimidated by other bison in their community also happen to intimidate other bison in their community.

It may be revealing to read the sentence replacing all instances of the animal buffalo with “people” and the verb buffalo with “intimidate”. The sentence then reads

“Buffalo people [that] Buffalo people intimidate [also happen to] intimidate Buffalo people.”

Did you get that?

Sunday, April 10, 2011

What Makes You An Expert?

"Just because you've been doing it longer, doesn't mean you're doing it right" - Me

I've found this to be true in most cases, but just recently I realized a situation in which its not. When it comes to relationships, people who are together for long periods of time are doing something right, whereas people who change relationships like they change underwear seem to be doing something wrong. And by long periods of time, I mean unmarried couples who have been together for several years and married couples who've been together in excess of 10 yrs.

In my opinion, these are the types of people who I would consider "relationship experts," or someone who can give good relationship advice. The problem is that many people who consider themselves "relationship experts" or say they give good relationship advice aren't in stable relationships or can't keep one. Those people will tell you how to GET a relationship but not how to KEEP one. Getting a relationship is simple, keeping it requires work.

I dont think you qualify to give advice if you've been married 3 or more times, or your marriages dont last longer than 5 years. I want to talk to the couple thats been married for 25 years or the couple thats been together and faithful to each other for 8 years. Those are the real relationship experts. They have put in work, been thru everything, cried and laughed together, and are still going strong. You've been with 6 different people in 5 years and you think you can tell me how to get a man? The only thing youre in expert in is fucking up and the only advice you can give is to not do what you did.

Note to Steve Harvey: STFU

Monday, March 14, 2011

People In Glass Houses Sink Ships

Me and my mom were having a conversation about sayings and quotes. She said she read a quote that said "Only a tree stands alone." Me and my dad looked at each other and almost at the same time said, "well what is a forest?" LOL

She kept saying she get it and we dont but me and my dad both said it doesnt make sense. Then i asked her if she's heard the saying "People in glass houses sink ships." She said yes. So I asked her what the quote means and how do you apply it to your life. This was her explanation (paraphrased):

They got these big ships like cruise ships and people build houses on them. And ships sink. So dont think that your glass house is too cool and cant sink.

Umm.........yeah, ok mom.

(she's so funny)

Thursday, January 13, 2011

I dont know how to love you anymore
I dont know if I could love you more than I did before
Before you said Im sorry
Before you played me like Atari
Before your angry aliens shot down my spaceship heart
I could have loved you more..........................probably
but now I can hardly think about you
without thinking about your drunk bloodshot eyes
raining on my parade
I dont blame it on the goose
I blame you
The alcohol became you
Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde was never a good look on you
There is no excuse for what you do when you drink
so I think there's no forgiveness in me for you
Forgive and forget dont apply to you
cause you broke the rules
but you were hoping that my love would save you
Save you from the ledge
Put my hand on your head,
put your head on my shoulder,
tell you the nightmare is over,
and even though the nights are colder,
my heart is warmer
My body is boiling over
Maybe i shoulda warned ya
You used all your lifelines and aint no starting over
You think Im gonna let you continue to diss and dismiss me and I still be there for ya?
Still care for ya?
Nah, I can care less for ya
Even if I forgave you, it wouldnt do any good for you
You'd find an excuse for a truce
while Dr. Jekyll is mixing the brew
Hmph, and you think its cute
One day you'll realize that having a dick
doesnt mean its ok to be a dick
and maybe you'll change your tune

Monday, January 3, 2011

New Writing

I'm trying to get back into writing and I appreciate all the people who are trying to help the process. So in addition to some poems I'm working on, I'm also working on a short story based on a dream I had. I figure that the short story will help by getting my fingers and mind back in the routine of channeling thoughts onto the paper. Plus, I haven't written a story in a while, unless you count the description of the dreams Ive had.

This should be fun.

Pain Itself

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